Happy Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving Everyone!!!!

I am headed to my Mom's tomorrow so I won't be blogging for a few days. I have had Eli since Friday night and we are having a BLAST! I can't wait to see my family!!

Christmas Pics and Eli

Burt and I took our Christmas picture last night. Here it is:

Here is my Christmas Tree:



Eli riding Black Beauty:



Our church is feeding those less fortunate this Thanksgiving. They asked church members to bring Turkeys already sliced or a cake (that they would slice) to the church by noon tomorrow. So being the wonderful mom-wanna-be that I am decided that this would be a GREAT learning opportunity for Eli. Remember, he is 8. He was trying to decide what kind of cake to make and he said "Aunt Bet I bet the poor people have never had chocolate. Maybe we should make chocolate." Then he decided, "No, we should make a regular cake and put chocolate icing on it in case they don't like the chocolate, they can take it off." Out of the mouth of babes.

Here is his cake:

cd 1

Today is cd 1. Today starts cycle 3 of 3 before IUI.

Hope is Gone

Well, any shred of hope that I had earlier in the week is gone. My temps plummeted this morning and then I spotted a tad bit of red this morning. Then nothing until now and now I am spotting brown. I know TMI!!! I'm sorry. Not to mention that I took a test yesterday and it was a BFN!!!!

I played Bunko tonight and that was a lot of fun. It got my mind off of fertility for a while. God and I had a long talk this morning in the bathtub. I wish I could just hear him in a audible voice say "It's Ok. This is why this is happening." Last night I was worried about a lot of things. I did hear a voice say "Everything's going to be ok". It was surreal. I know it was God. I just know it. I had this unusual sense of peace right after that.

Now without further adu, here are the pictures of Katie Margaret Hanes. Her Mom is my best friend in the whole wide world, Meg. We went to college together.

Day Off....

Well, today was my day off. I have had such a GREAT long weekend. It was productive, but not in the way I had planned. I finished my Christmas shopping and started wrapping presents. Mom finished making the bows for my garland and wreaths but I didn't get them up. I had planned on doing that today, we will as cleaning the house, and sewing. But that didn't happen. At 6:02 am Burt's cell phone rang. I sat straight up in the bed. It was our cabinet builder. He had finished our china cabinet and said he wanted to install it today. Burt said that is fine and to call me when he was ready to come. He said it would be sometime mid-morning. The phone rang at 8:15 (I guess that is his mid-morning!!) and he was there at 8:30 am. They worked until 2 pm installing it. It is gorgeous and HUGE. It is wall to wall, floor to ceiling. I stained the bottom half today and started to get a little woozy so Burt is staining the top right now. I will post some pics when we are completely finished. They have to bring the doors for the bottom back later in the week. I am so excited!!! It adds so much to the room. I wish I had thought to take a before picture but they surprised me by coming today. i am so glad I was already off work today.

Today is 11 dpo. I spotted a little bit today. I did this last month too. I don't know maybe it is the letrozole. I have never done this before. I think I spotted a little yesterday too. Last month I started spotting on cd 11 too. So it is probably nothing to get excited about. I went and bought some pregnancy tests today. I had a $5 off coupon at CVS so I went ahead. I may take one in the morning. I am trying not too. But I might. Not getting my hopes up......Not expecting anything....

Another Long Week

I don't even remember much about Monday and Tuesday b/c this week has been so long. Wednesday night I had class. Thursday night I had class and we had a fire drill in the middle of it. Why would you schedule a fire drill this late in the semester and on a night when it is 30 degrees? Why couldn't we have done this when it was a little warmer?

We went to Mistletoe on Friday. It was a lot of fun. It was really crowded. I bought several things though. I bought a 4 ft tall feather boa Christmas tea to match my feather boa wreath. I bought a wooden sign that says "God may your blessings be on my family". I bought Noah a Mississippi State tri-cycle for Christmas. I bought a couple of Christmas platters.

Mom and I got home about 10 Friday night and I was exhausted. I left home at 7 am Friday, drove two hours, shopped all day, and them drove home 2 more hours. I crawled in bed about 11 and Mom woke us up at 6:45 am Saturday. We got dressed and drove 2 hours North to South Haven shopping. Got home at 10 and in bed at 11 again. We then had church today and it was my Sunday for Deaf Interpretation. That always wears me out. But hey, I have tomorrow off for Veterans Day. One of the many perks of having a federal job.

I had been optimistic about this cycle so far. I was actually getting excited and hope was creeping back in. I had imagined how I would tell everyone at Christmas. Yesterday and today for some reason though, I have been very depressed and have this feeling that it is never going to happen for me. I wish I could snap out of this. It doesn't help that my mind is playing tricks on me. My boobs are killing me but I am only 10 dpo. I am sure they are just getting ready for the next cycle. They are always tender about now, but they REALLY hurt today. And I have been getting really nauseated at 5 pm every afternoon for the past few days. This happens sometimes too. It could all be something or it could all be nothing....I am betting on something. I am giving this all to God. It is all in his control. I just don't understand why he would put this desire in my heart and not fulfill it. But that is not for me to worry about. God knows and things work in His time and in His way. On another note, Burt has now been officially working with the youth at church for 6 months and the personnel committee still hasn't brought it before the church. Keep us in your prayers this week. Wednesday night is the business meeting. Hopefully we will have some good news for a change. But once again, in God' timing and in His way!!

Progesterone and China Cabinet

Well, I thought I was going to have to have my 7 dpo progesterone checked on Thursday which is really inconvenient because I will be in Jackson on Friday for Mistletoe. I called the nurse today and she said I didn't need to have it run at all b/c my levels have been doing so good.

And on the plus side, I ovulated on cd 16 this month!! WOOHOO!!! A whole day early. This will be a 30 day cycle instead of 31. I want them as short as possible!!!! Today is cd 20.

The carpenter who custom built all of the abinets in our house came today to take final measurements. Burt is getting him to build me a wall to wall, floor to ceiling china cabinet to match all of the other oak cabinets in the house. I am so excited. I have to stain it, which will of course be a pain, but it will be beautiful!! He was going to start it today. I can't wait.

Halloween, Christmas Decorations, and Babies

First of all,
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!

I know I am really late, but I am so busy during the week.....as always.

Eli, Noah, and Anna Kate were precious. But of course, I forgot the pics at work. I'll post them Monday. Eli was Davy Jones from Pirates of the Caribbean, Noah was the Cookie Monster, and Anna Kate was a cowgirl.

Now that Halloween is over, I started putting out my Christmas Decorations tonight. Burt put up the tree last night. I have been working on the ornaments and the decorations around the house tonight. I will post some pics this week. We are going to go ahead and take our Christmas card picture this week so that we can have them made.

And finally babies......no I am not pregnant. Had you thinking I was didn't I. No, my friend Meg had her baby, Katie Margaret, yesterday. She is precious. I have pictures but I don't want to upload them until Meg does on her site. They should be up soon. She is still in the hospital. As for me, today is cd 17. I think I ovulated yesterday. Looks like we have had perfect timing this month and I have had a good amount of EWCM. At least I think it is a good amount. It tons more than I have EVER seen. I will go next Friday for my lab work and see what my progesterone is.

I am so excited about my Christmas tree. I love this time of year. But and I have been so blessed this year. Really, we have. Even if we haven't had a baby, we are still EXTREMELY blessed. On a sad note, Burt's cousin lost her baby at 17 weeks. Keep her in your prayers. She already has 4 children that range from 2 - 12. Her 2 year olds are twin girls and one of them has down syndrome. Heather has always wanted 5 children. They are going to keep on trying. The doctors don't know what happened. Her, her husband, and the 4 children went to the doctor for her 17 week checkup and were going to let the kids hear the heartbeat but it wasn't there. They said the baby died at 15 weeks.