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Today is cycle day 1. No such luck this weekend. Tomorrow is my 3 month on clomid post surgery no pregnancy re-check. I guess we'll decide tomorrow what to try next. Burt and I are taking the whole day off and spending it with Mom in Jackson.

Shower #3 of 5

Today I went to shower #3 of 5 for the weekend. It was a baby shower. I made it through it. No tears at all. Aren't you proud!!! This is a friend of mine who got married Thanksgiving of 2005 and immediately started trying to get pregnant. She knew she would have problems b/c she only has 4 cycles per year. Her doctor made her wait 1 year before they did anything. November of 2006 she tried 50 mg of clomid for the first time and immediately became pregnant. It is so NOT fair!!!! But I am happy for her. One thing bothers me about her and my other pregnant friends, and maybe I just don't understand because I lost both of my babies before 8 weeks. But what bothers me is about how much they complain. They all wanted to be pregnant and now all they do is complain. Stop complaining. Cherish every moment of being pregnant. Especially when you know that you are in the presence of a person who has lost two and now can't seem to get pregnant.

We had an AWESOME church service tonight. We had a prayer service. That was it. We sang one song and then prayed silently and then as people felt led they got up and gave a testimony. It was GREAT!!!

"Be still and know that He is God!!"

Shower #2 of 5

OK so today was the 2nd of 5 that I have this weekend. I can't go to two of them. Today's was at my house. It was really nice. It was a wedding shower. Susan got a lot of cool things. We had an Around the House Shower so she got a lot of things she liked but would never ask for. It was really neat.

Tonight we had a fellowship fish fry at the church. It was fun but I am exhausted after today.

Get this. My temperature has stayed the same for 4 days in a row. I wonder what this means, if anything. If anyone knows, let me know. Here is my chart.

Nothing New

Nothingnew to report today. I went to a wedding shower tonight for my friend at work who is pregnant and getting married on the 30th. I just had a BIG problem with it. I am trying to be supportive but I don't agree with the way her wedding is being handled. I just don't agree with her getting married is a white wedding gown and everyone fawning all over her and telling her how wonderful this is. Just my opinion. I am just having problems with it.

Tomorrow I am hosting a wedding shower for another friend at work. I am also directing/coordinating her wedding.

Sunday I have to go to a baby shower for another friend. I got an invitation to another shower for Sunday, but it is in Laurel and I can't go. I sent a gift today.

This is going to be a tough weekend for me.

Synthroid

I finally talked to the thyroid doctor today. His nurse actually called late yesterday afternoon and I had to fax my results from the physical in. Today they increased my dosage of Synthroid from .112 mg to .137 mg. I am so disappointed and frustrated. It seems like everytime I fix something with my body something else breaks.....and they all affect fertility. When I had my thyroid removed 3 years ago everything was supposed to be fine and has been since. But now my thyroid has turned hypo again because of the baby aspirin that I am taking everyday. Apparently aspirin has that effect on people. I have to go back in 6 weeks to have it retested. I just hope that this cycle was not a bust because of it. I think mainly it affects ovulation and causes annovulation but since I am taking clomid I ovulate. I don't know if it has any effect on implantation.

Day 21 Progesterone Yesterday.....

..........was 45.10!!!!!!!!!

YEA!!!!!!!!! I am so super excited. The nurse didn't call until I was walking out the door to go play tennis. I ovulated!!!!! I guess I really ovulated b/c a Day 21 test is supposed to be 7 dpo. But according to my temp chart and the fact that I have 31 day cycles, I didn't ovulate until Day 18......so does anyone know what that means.

I am headed out to go with a friend to Winona to pick out a cake and flowers for her wedding!!!

Dang Thyroid

First of all, DO NOT leave me a comment unless it is in English and relates to me or my life.

Now that I said that, my thyroid levels are all messed up. As some of you know I had mine removed in 2004. I had my physicalfor work today and my Total T4 was 14.3 (normal is 4.5 -12.0). My TSH was 19.990 (normal is .350- 5.5). I have called my endocrinologist and I am currently waiting for them to call me back with an appointment. I hope it was just lab error or a bad day and it is not continually elevated.

I'm going to play tennis at the club tonight in a tennis mixer. It should be tons of fun!! Right now though I am exhausted and I am going to take a nap.