14w2d

I'm ok. Things are good. The baby is fine.

My Papaw had a massive stroke last Friday night and is not doing well. He is paralyzed on his left side and his esophagus is completely closed. The doctors told us yesterday that he is slowly deteriorating and that what we have now is the best it will ever be. That it is only a matter of time until he passes. Nannie, Mom, Aunt Ann, and Uncle Olyn decided yesterday to slowly start withdrawing everything from him. We decided as he pulled tubes out we would leave them out. The doctors say that he is not in any pain but that if any starts they will keep him comfortable. He pulled out the feeding tube (which they were only using for meds) and the trumpet tube used to suction his chest yesterday. Today he has pulled out his IV. He has pneumonia now.

We have had a very special week with Papaw. We figure he will pass sometime over the weekend. I have been home since Sunday and don't want to leave but I guess if nothing has happened I will go home on Sunday. I had about 10 minutes alone with him yesterday and we talked and I was able to say good-bye. I had some things that I needed to say that I really didn't want the rest of the family to hear. I had a very special relationship with my Papaw. He helped raise me after my Dad left when I was a young girl. He was the only male role model I ever had - he was my Daddy. He even walked me down the aisle to my Mom when I got married.

Tuesday night it looked like it was the end. All of the family happened to be here and he asked for all of us. The ICU nurses have been WONDERFUL. They allow us to go in anytime we want as long as there is nothing going on back there and they let as many of us go in at a time as we want. So there were like 10 of us in there that night. He told us he wanted to pray so we did, then he wanted us to sing - so my sister and I sang to him, and then he wanted us to say the blessing so we did. He then told us he was ready to go home and see Jesus and to stand him up. we told him we were all standing and he could go on home.

Today he still recognizes all of us but it very weak and only stays awake about long enough to say "I Love You". He did tell us today not to cry. He was going to be fine.

I will try to keep you updated as things change. I just got my laptop here at the hospital.

Nannie and Mom, Aunt Ann, and Uncle Olyn sat down and planned his funeral earlier in the week before Nannie got too tired and weak. We are going to pick out the casket tomorrow. I wrote the obituary yesterday. We were worried if Nannie waited she would be too upset to remember what Papaw wanted.

I had another ultrasound yesterday. The hospital was gracious enough to do it for me giving the circumstances. We were hoping that we would find out what it was so we could tell Papaw but the tech couldn't tell - so I'm thinking a girl b/c we knew 2 of my nephews were boys this early. I could be wrong though - it could be a stinky 'ol boy!!!! Nannie is putting a picture of the great-grandchildren in his casket and she wanted an ultrasound picture to go in there too and that is what really prompted us to go get an updated ultrasound photo done.