Dr. Isaacs

Well, we met with Dr. Isaacs today. He was nice. I absolutely LOVED his nurse. I don't know, maybe I just have to warm up to him. He seemed a little perturbed that my Ob/Gyn's office had not sent over my medical records yet. He says that clomid has done all it is going to do for me so we are changing medications. I will now be taking letrozole on cd days 5-9 for the next three months. If this does not work in three months, we will do this plus an IUI. I'm kinda discouraged. I am tired of simply taking pills every month. I have been doing this for 2 years. I know he knows what he is doing and he is very conservative. He doesn't like to get aggressive until he absolutely has to and I respect that. The appointment just didn't go as I had hoped. I want answers. I want something, anything, done.

Water, Water Everywhere!!!!

Julie was induced at 6 am yesterday. I didn't go to the hospital until we knew something. We had one friend sitting up there who kept calling all of us. When I got off work at 4 yesterday, I called the hospital and they said she still had not delivered. WE have Burt's 10 year class reunion this weekend and were supposed to have drinks at Fermo's last night. We decided after work that since Julie had not had the baby, there was no reason to go to the hospital yet. We decided to go home and change clothes for the reunion and then go to the hospital before we went to the reunion. WE walked in the house and I changed clothes and didn't notice anything. Burt walked in the bedroom and and when he did water started seeping through the joints in our hardwood. There was no evidence of a leak - other than that. No water on the floor in our bathroom. The walls weren't wet and it was only in one spot in our bathroom. We shut the water off and called the plumber who came right on. He had to cut a hole in our bedroom wall to find the pipes. He said it was a really slow leak in the copper pipes. He said it has probably been leaking since the house was built and it just now accumulated enough water to show. He fixed the leak and we went to Lowe's and bought a dehumidifier. It has been running all night and we have filled up 2 buckets with water. The floor isn't squishy anymore and when you step on it water doesn't seep through, so hopefully it didn't damage the hardwood too much. We do have extra hardwood but I really don't want to have to pay someone to come in and lay it, especially since the dehumidifier cost $150.

So after we hooked the dehumidifier up, we had already missed the reunion (but that's ok - more reunion today). So we decided to go on to the hospital. We walked through the doors about 7:30 and met Shannon's parents in the hall. Maggie Grace Moore was born at 7:13 pm last night and while she was a premie, she was a healthy premie. She weighed 4 lb 14 oz and was 17 1/2 inches long. I think they had her due date off a little. I think she was further along then they had thought, which is quite possible because she doesn't really know when she conceived because she was on the pill and she was about 10 weeks before she knew she was pregnant. I was a little irritated last night. They said Maggie was fine but after 2 hours Julie still had not seen her and they wouldn't let her go to the nursery - not even in a wheelchair - and there was nothing wrong with her. Then, this hospital doesn't have a neonatologist and we don't have a pediatrician in this town either, so they had to call the Family Doctor who also sees babies. But they said that there was no reason to call him until this morning. They were not going to call a Dr at all to look at the newborn last night - not even as a PREMIE!!!!!! I had to leave about 9:30, I was about to lose it. This is not the hospital we will use. My doctor is in Vicksburg ( an hour away). These people here are crazy!!!!

Still excited about seeing Dr. Isaacs Monday. Keep us in your prayers. I really want to try something, anything, this cycle. I took my clomid and Monday is cd 12 and I usually ovulate around cd 18 so hopefully we can fit in a IUI this cycle.

Class

I started teaching tonight. This is my first semester to teach. I am teaching two sections (Wednesday night and Thursday night) of the same class. It went well tonight. I had 5 students not show up and another 2 that wanted in the class but it was full. I couldn't do too much with them tonight because I was missing so many students. We covered half of the first chapter. We will cover the second half next week and take a test the next week.

Anxiously awaiting my appointment with Dr. Isaacs on Monday. I got some information from his office in the mail today. I can't wait. It did say to bring a credit card though......

Monday, August 27th, 1:30 p.m.

That is my appointment with Dr. Issacs. I am stoked. I can't believe I got in that quick. Hopefully, we will go ahead with the IUI this month. Monday will be cd 12 and I usually ovulate on cd 18. Cross your fingers and keep me in your prayers.

My friend Julie is still in the hospital, but has not had the baby yet. She has been having some really strong contractions but they have managed to stop them. They have given her 2 shots to help Maggie's lungs. They hope she can hold off until tomorrow after 5:30 pm. Keep her in your thoughts and prayers. She is going to have a tiny baby and the closest NICU is 2 hours away.

Canoeing and Babies

We took the youth from the church canoeing yesterday. It was alot of fun. I am so tired today though and my legs are all bruised up. I haven't had that much fun in a while. KK brought Eli and they canoed with us.

At our church our young married adult Sunday School class takes turns feeding the other coupldes dinner when someone has surgery or a baby. Tonight Burt and I had to feed Andy and Jennifer. They had their baby on the 9th. They are my friends that got pregnant their first month on clomid. They baby is prescious but they said they are worn out and don't have a clue what they are doing.

My other friends, Shannon and Julie, who are due in October went the the hospital after church was over this morning because she thought her water was leaking. Well, it was, it broke. The is 33 weeks. They have her in the hospital and are trying to make her wait 48 hours. I wish her the best. They are my friends who accidentally got pregnant on birth control.

I was doing ok with my infertility so far and then all of this this weekend. I started crying during church tonight. It is just so not fair. I don't know why God is putting my through all of this. I know it is all part of his big plan for my life and that He is using this for his glory but I just don't see it. I am so frustrated right now. The doctor didn't call me back with my appointment with Dr. Issacs on Friday. My Dr. is usually not in the office on Fridays because he holds clinic right across the river in Louisiana on Fridays. So maybe that is why they didn't call back, because they were not there. Hopefully, they will call in the morning. I will give them until lunch and then I will call back.

cd 1

Well, at 5:30 this morning Aunt Flo knocked on the door. I tried to make her go away, but she pushed right on in.

I am really frustrated right now. I figured up today that in 22 months I have done 15 rounds of clomid and only achieved pregnancy once and then miscarried. I have been adding premarin to see if maybe I have a mucous problem. That has not changed anything. I am really worried now that something is wrong with my eggs. We know Burt is fine. He could populate the entire world himself. I took Depo-Provera for four years. I am really worried that it did something to my eggs. I know I have some good ones. I have gotten pregnant twice, but miscarried both times b/c of clotting.

I called my Ob/GYN today and told him I was ready to go see the RE, Dr. Issacs, in Jackson. The nurse said it would probably be tomorrow before she would get the appointment made but that she would call me tomorrow. IUI here I come!!!!

Dang It!!!! ***UPDATED***

Today is cd 32. I should have started today. I haven't......yet. Not holding out any hope right now. My temps dropped this morning. Not below coverline yet, but pretty close. I have also started spotting. I usually don't. I usually just start. So far only a little bit of spotting though. I even had a triphasic chart this month. I had started to think that this could actually happen. That I could actually be pregnant. That we could be pregnant without IUI/IVF. I counted up today and in the past 2 years, I have done 15 cycles of clomid. Achieved one pregnancy but lost it at eight weeks. I don't hold out hope anymore. I don't like the odds. I am calling to get the appointment with the RE to try IUI. I am so frustrated and angry right now. I just don't understand why this has to be so hard for me.

BTW - I haven't tested since I did Monday. I started to this morning but thought for sure I was starting as soon as I stood up. I'll let you when good 'ol AF arrives.

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Well, it's 8:58 pm and AF still has not arrived. Haven't spotted again either. We'll see what in the morning brings. I'm sure AF is coming up the road.

Back to the Real World

We got home from Hot Springs last night. We had a BLAST. Lots of much needed R&R. I didn't want to go back to work today. I kept telling myself just one more day.

I am teaching two classes at night at the local community college this fall. We had our faculty dinner tonight.

On the TTC front, today is cd 29. Chickened out of POAS this morning. I'll see what my temps do in the morning. The new cycle should start Wednesday.

Election, Owie, and Vacation

This has been a busy week. Yesterday was the Primary election in Mississippi. My brother-in-law was running for State Auditor. He is in a run off. My sister and he were at a restaurant with his campaign crew last night and they called me every ten minutes wanting an update until 11:30 last night.

I got a major owie yesterday. I was at my weekly tennis lesson and we were working on power serves. I followed through and hit my chin as hard as I could. I didn't break the skin but it looks like I did. I have a 4 inch long bruise/knot. It hurts ssssoooooo bad!!!!

We leave for vacation tomorrow!!!! I won't post for a few days b/c we are going to Hot Springs, Arkansas for our anniversary. I can't believe we have been married for 5 years already.

On the TTC front, I am on cd 25. I should know something definite this time next week. I think I will wait and test on Monday and not ruin our trip.

Susan's Wedding

I have been out of town since Thursday morning. My friend Susan got married yesterday and I was her wedding coordinator/planner/director/decorator. I did it all. I am exhausted today. I slept until 12:30 pm and then got up and ate lunch and went back to bed at 4 pm and slept till 6 pm. I am up right now but I don't know for how much longer. We got home about 11:30 last night. It was an hour and a half drive and we had to help clean up after the wedding before we could leave. Susan left all the decisions up to me. She picked out the bridesmaids dresses and her dress and said she wanted Gerber daisies but that was all the decisions she made. She LOVED everything. Her fiance was worried Thursday and Friday b/c he didn't see the big picture of what everything was going to look like and he was concerned. He gave me a big hug after it was over and said that he LOVED everything, that it was perfect. The flower girl freaked out during pictures and is only in 2 pictures. I was worried she wouldn't go down the aisle but she did and everything was perfect. The only thing that happened was the air conditioner went out in the gym Friday night so we had to move the reception to another place in the church. But everything was fine. I wish I had a picture of Susan's bouquet but I don't. It was gorgeous. Here are some pics though.