Tuesday, July 31, 2007


Burt is gone to a meeting in Greenwood (about an hour away). I went and played tennis after work....man was it hot!!! When I pulled in the driveway I saw our miniature horse in the yard. The two big horses (Red Roan Quarterhorse - Tank and Tennessee Walker - Beauty) were still in the pasture. Apparently sometime recently lightening struck our fence and messed it up enough so that Bootsie could escape but not the two big horses. I put her back up and my father-in-law came over and fixed the fence.

We also got a new puppy last week. She has chewed up a few things and dug up 2 flowers in the flower bed but all in all it has gone well. Her name is Lucy.

Today is cd 17. Burt needs to come on home because I got a positive with the OPK today. I have taken 2. One at 6 this morning and another just a few minutes ago. Both were definitely positive. Fingers and toes are crossed........

Monday, July 30, 2007

Tennis and Sperm Donor

I played tennis tonight. It felt good. My partner and I won. I needed the exercise and to get out and clear my mind.

No, we are not using a sperm donor. I heard from mine today. Well, my father. I haven't spoken to him in 15 years. I see him from a distance occasionally. He still lives in the same town where I grew up. I'm g;ad that he has finally gotten his life straightened out but it a little too late. Long story short. He had an affair. I caught him when I was 11. He said he didn't love me and never had.......

So, he is really the last person I wanted to hear from. And typical of him, he wrote me a letter with no return address. I don't know how he found me. We moved less than a year ago and there are not many people that know my new address. Same town just different address. I don't even know if he knew my married name until recently. I would like to write him a response but I have no return address and tried to find his today and couldn't.

Today is cd 16. OPK is still negative but getting darker. Probably should ovulate tomorrow or Wednesday.

Friday, July 27, 2007

Anniversary Gift

Mine and Burt's 5th anniversary is August 10th. To celebrate we are going to Hot Springs, Arkansas for 4 days. He went ahead and gave me my anniversary gift this week. It is an anniversary band fr my ring set. When he bought my engagement ring, he only bought the ring, so wedding band. All he really bought was the setting. The diamond in my ring was his grandmothers. So we had to have a wedding band custom made for it. So for my anniversary he had the top (anniversary) band made. Here is a pic. You can't tell too much from the pic but the two band have 3 baggets on them.

And by the way - today is cd 13.

Thursday, July 26, 2007


I played Bunko tonight. I didn't win anything but I had a great time playing. We have a Bunko group in our neighborhood. I am just a sub right now. I have been wanting to become a permanent member for a year now but it just hasn't worked out. It's a lot of fun and only one person in the group knows about our fertility situation so it is good to get away from it without feeling pressure. Just a bunch of women playing Bunko.

Wednesday, July 25, 2007


I started the Premarin today. I will take it for 7 days. Since I ovulate on day 17 or 18 I am supposed to start taking it on day 14. But since I ovulated so late last month, I upped it a little bit and started taking it on day 11. We'll see what happens. On another note, I think I had egg-white cervical mucous today. I have never seen anything like this so maybe it is a good sign...or maybe it is all in my head, but I did see something.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007


I told you yesterday that I would upload some pictures from this weekend. Here they are!!!!

Noah's Birthday outfit that I made for him!!!

Noah asleep with his corn on the cob. He screamed everytime we tried to take it away from him.

Anna Kate

Monday, July 23, 2007

New cell phone, birthday party, clomid

Today is cd 9. Clomid headaches are killers this month. I've never had them this bad. I've had a busy past several days. First of all, last Thursday I went to Jackson to the Endocrinologist about my thyroid. My levels checked out fine and he said that the reason they went crazy could have been because my left tube was attached to my colon and was messing up the absorption of the medication.

Then, Friday we took the youth from the church to Youth Night. We had a BLAST!!! We went to the Healthplex at MC and let the kids swim and play basketball until midnight afterwards. Then Saturday morning we went to the water park. I left from the water park about lunch and drove home. Friday was Noah's birthday. We had his birthday party yesterday. He had lots of fun!!! I will post pics later. My camera is in the truck and Burt is gone in the truck right now. I bought Noah a blow up swimming pool for his birthday and he LOVED it. He jumped in fully clothed, shoes and all. We didn't get finished with the party until 6:00. I decided to spend the night and come back this morning. I'm glad I did because when I went to crank my truck for Mom and I to go get something to eat....the battery was dead!!!! Thankfully, my Uncle Dave was home and he has batteries at his house so we went and got him to fix it!!!

Oh and I absolutely LOVE my blackberry!!!!

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Cell Phone WORKS.....Kinda!!!

Ok so I am not very patient. We all know that. Burt had to take my phone away from me last night because it was killing me. I wanted to know if it was going to work or not. I dried it with the hair dryer for a bit last night. We left the battery off all night and when Burt got out of bed at 5 am he put the battery back on for me. It works....kinda. There is no back light anymore. The screen was fogged up this morning but it is better now. I can barely hear on it though. So I ordered a new phone this morning. It should be here tomorrow or Friday at the latest. I got a blackberry. I am super excited!!!! In the meantime I wrote down all of the numbers in my phone in case it dies before my new one gets here.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Cell Phones Do Not Belong in the Toilet

OK. So I accidentally did something stupid. I dropped my cell phone in the toilet. I took the battery off and it is drying. A friend who used to work on cell phones told me that if you let it dry before you put the battery back on it, it will work. We'll see in the morning. I just got this phone. It is just a cheap Nokia, but it had my life on it. I need for my phone to work. Hopefully, keep fingers crossed, pray it will work in the morning. I have my Drs cell phone, home phone, and pager on it. I don't want to ask for it again, but I guess I will if I need to. Today is cd 3. Just trudging along. I got my clomid filled last night and the pharmacist felt the need to hear my life story. Then we went to the church tonight for Burt to give blood in the blood drive and everyone there seemed to want an update and asked very specific, personal questions. This along with my friend at work who is pregnant came back from her honeymoon and has done nothing but complain. If I hear say one more time "I'm Fat" I might have to slap her. I just want to yell out "You are carrying (sp?) around a whole other freaking person inside you, did you think you would stay the same size!!!!! UGH!!!!

Sunday, July 15, 2007


Well, she came. AF knocked on the door about 8:00 am this morning. Only two more cycles until the IUI. This is going to be a busy month so hopefully it flies by. I have to go see my endocrinologist Thursday for a recheck from when my thyroid levels went out of control 6 weeks ago. Then on Friday afternoon/night, Burt and I are taking the youth from our church to Mississippi Baptist Youth Night in Jackson and then to the water park on Saturday. Our youth director moved in May and Burt and I are the interim directors. Then Saturday afternoon I am driving home because Friday is Noah's 1st Birthday and we are having his party Sunday afternoon. Then the next weekend my brother-in-law is staying with us so that he can campaign (he's running for state auditor). Then the next weekend is my friend Susan's wedding (the one I am directing) so we'll be out of town for three days. Then the next weekend is our anniversary and we are going to Hot Springs for a much needed long weekend. Then the next week we should have an answer about whether or not we have to try the third and final cycle with Premarin. Cross our fingers for a BFP that week. Then the next week we are taking the youth canoeing. BUSY! BUSY! BUSY!

Saturday, July 14, 2007

cd 33

Today is cd 33. Negative test this morning. Temp dropped by a whole degree, but not quite to cover line. I kept telling myself that maybe I didn't take it right. I went to Jackson last night for a lingerie shower for a friend and it was storming on the way. I left work about 2:30 and I got home about 11:30 last night. I got in bed about 12:30 and then we had a prank phone call at 2:30 and 5:00 this morning and then I had to take the temp at 5:30 and I am not convinced I had my mouth closed all the way. I guess I am just going to start late this month. I am NEVER this late. Last time I was pregnant I didn't test until cd 34 and it was very faint then. And that one turned out to be a blighted ovum. I am so upset this morning. THIS SUCKS!!!! I just knew this month was going to work. Over the past two days I had convinced myself I was pregnant. I want a baby so BAD!!!! Now I have to wait a whole another month. Only two more months of this and I can go for the IUI!!! I just don't understand!!!!!!! Why does God choose to bless people who don't take care of their babies, or who or not married. WHY???? I have done everything right in my life. We just built this beautiful 4 bedroom dream home, but I can't even fill one other room much less all of them. I just don't understand why this has to be so hard for me. I could understand if I only had 1 tube or 1 ovary, but they removed the endometrosis, and unblocked my left tube, but still can't find anything else "wrong" with me.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

cd 31

My new cycle should have started today, but it didn't. I have been running to the bathroom all day thinking it was coming, but nothing yet. A small glimmer of hope is back, but I'm sure I will be disappointed in the morning. I didn't test today. I chickened out. I will test in the morning if my temp is still elevated. It was still up this morning. We'll see tomorrow. I'll let you know.

Wednesday, July 11, 2007


I can't believe it has been a week since I updated my blog. Nothing new has happened. Mom, KK, Eli, and Noah came to visit for the weekend. We had a really good time. Noah is cutting a tooth and he screamed from 2 am until 6 am Sunday morning. Burt got up with him. Burt was also the one who put him down at 8 pm. He was so good with him. It was the first time I had seen Burt in Dad-mode. He always plays with the kids but hands them off when they start crying. He is going to make a GREAT Dad...one day. But now this month, test was negative this morning. Today is cd 30. New cycle should start tomorrow at the latest Friday. I'm going to wait to test again until Friday. See what happens tomorrow. I have a horrible summer cold right now. I'm scared to take any medication while we are just not sure. I was kinda excited when I got it b/c the last time I got a cold I was pregnant. But unfortunately I just don't think it is meant to be this month. 2 more cycles of clomid/premarin before I can have the IUI. Waiting.....

Here is a picture of Noah from this weekend. This was his first attempt at corn on the cob and he did pretty good with it actually.

Thursday, July 5, 2007

Happy Belated 4th of July

Happy belated 4th of July everyone!!!! We were sssooooo busy yesterday. Burt worked until lunch to get some credit time and I was lazy. I got up about 8:30 and drank some coffee and played on the Internet until about 11:00. Then I decided that I would clean the floors upstairs. I haven't been upstairs this week and we have had some men doing sheetrock work. I walked up there and EVERYTHING, including my hardwood floors, was covered in sheetrock dust. Burt and I both got on our hands and knees and cleaned and cleaned. We have finally gotten it all up but we need to go back and do the floors one more time. Then I spent the rest of the afternoon sewing. I made the cutest gift for a friend for her lingerie shower. I can't tell you what it is because she may read this post but I'll post some pics next week after the shower. I also made bibs and burp cloths for a friend who is having a shower Saturday.

Mom, Eli, Noah, and KK (Mom's boyfriend) are coming up this weekend to visit. I am so excited. Noah is walking now and I haven't gotten to see it yet. I love when Mom comes to visit. I miss her so much. Especially now and I don't know why. They will be here late tomorrow afternoon and will stay until Sunday. Burt is going to take the boys swimming Saturday while Mom and I shop. Who knows what KK will do?

I know I jinxed myself today, but I couldn't help it. I bought the cutest maternity shirt at Wal-Mart of all places. I will have to upload a pic in a minute. It is super cute and only cost $3.50 i couldn't turn it down!!!

Monday, July 2, 2007

New Pic

Burt and I finally took a picture together. We have not done that since we got married. My friend Susan took a picture of us at the wedding. Monica was at work today. She is going on her honeymoon next week. Here is a picture of her from the wedding.

Here is a picture of my friend Susan and her fiance Brian. Their's is the wedding that I am directing/coordinating.

Sunday, July 1, 2007

Wedding and Ovulation

So we went to the wedding last night. She was a beautiful bride. It was a beautiful wedding. It was really HOT though. We left about 8:30 just as the mosquitos were coming out.

Well, my temp chart says that I ovulated. Anyone ever seen a chart like this. My temps usually spike after ovulation. I wonder if the low temp are from the Premarin. Anyone know? Today is the last day for Premarin. No more drugs in my system so maybe I can feel normal for a few days. Now we wait.....