Cramps and Worry

I had horrible cramps yesterday. They were right on time. I always cramp during ovulation. I thought that I must be ovulating. It was cd 18 and that is always when I ovulate +- 1 day. i even got nauseous at Pizza Hut last night eating. So I thought for sure that my temp would spike this morning to show ovulation. Nothing. Stayed the exact same temp as yesterday. Now I am worried. My OPK still was negative. Did I ovulate on time? Did I ovulate way early before I started the OPK. Did I ovulate at all? Will I ovulate?

Burt is gone this morning to work on a computer on a tug boat at the river. And then he has to go to a friend's house to work on a computer. I'm at home. I need to do some cleaning today. Monica's (my pregnant friend at work) wedding is tonight. I don't want to go, but I will be the black sheep at work if I don't. It's not just because she is pregnant that I don't want to go. It's because it is an utside wedding, in Mississippi, in June, at 6 pm. You do the math. They said the mosquitos were pretty bad last night at the rehearsal. Everyone says it is a beautiful place to get married but the reception will be beside the pond......in Mississippi, in June, at 6 pm. I know she will be a beautiful bride and it will be a beautiful wedding and I know that I will have a good time. I'm just not in the mood to go watch a pregnant woman get married.....not today at least.

BTW - here is my temp chart from this month. It is all over the place. Hope we see a temp spike tomorrow!!!!

New Look

Ok. So I was bored today. I'm at home. We have some painters here doing some work. I didn't have anything else to do o I thought I would redo the look of my blog. Whatcha think?

Today is cd 17. No positive OPK yet. But this morning's stick was a bit darker than it has been all week. I should ovulate tomorrow. We'll see.

I have been taking the Premarin for 4 days now. Still no headaches so I guess I do ok on them.

Mom is getting her car back today. She is so excited. Nannie went home from the hospital this week. She is physically fine but is still having depression/dementia issues.

So far, so good

No headaches so far on the Premarin. Hopefully I won't get any.

Burt's roommate in college and his wife (Chip & Markell) had their baby today. 8 lb 2 oz - William Ezekiel "Zeke" Carter. I am really happy for them. They host a baby this week last summer. The cord became pinched. She was 24 weeks.

Another friend of Burt's and his wife (Robbie and Maribeth) called last week and they just found out they are pregnant with their 2nd child. Robbie kinda felt bad b/c he was so excited (and we are happy for them) and he blurted out "We didn't think it would happen this soon". This is the first month off birth control. As soon as he said it he realized what he had said.

My friend at work who is pregnant and not married went to the Dr today to find out what she is having. They couldn't tell. They thought she was about 20 weeks pregnant but apparently not. She has a quack for a dr. This is the first ultrasound they have done this whole time. He guess on how far along she was last time by listening to the heart beat.

Oh well, such is my life. It will happen. I know it will.

Premarin

Today is cd 14. I started the Premarin today. No headaches yet. We'll see......

Off to play tennis!!!!

Pool Party

Today we had a Sunday School fellowship pool party. It was alot of fun. We enjoyed playing with the kids. But when John-Chandler and Landry left to go to a family reunion it was wasn't fun anymore. The remaining families there just aren't very much fun. There were 2 pregnant women there. So all anyone talked about was being pregnant. Those two kept complaining and everyone else said that they missed being pregnant. They all said they wished they could be pregnant and not have to bring the baby home. You can imagine what this did to me.

Landry fell in the pool in the deep end. She is not quite two. Everyone else was in the shallow end but Burt. He dove in and saved her.

I start my OPK tomorrow.

clomid

Today is day 9 so that means that it is also my last day of clomid for this cycle. Hallelujah! The headaches have been really bad this month.

Amy (my sister) had a wreck today. A police car ran a red light and she broad-sided him. He did not have his lights on. He admitted that he pushed a yellow light and didn't make it. She totaled out the police car and her Expedition has to have a new bumper, hood, and headlight. But she is ok and that is all that matters. Neither one of the boys were with her. She was actually on her way to pick up Noah from daycare.

Noah is walking!!!!! I can't wait to see him.

Nannie is still is the hospital. They can't find anything physically wrong with her. The Dr. started her on anti-depressants and alzheimer's medication so he is keeping her in the hospital a bit longer until he see what effects the meds will have on her.

Happy Father's Day

Today was just like any ordinary day for us. Burt's Dad was out of town so we couldn't celebrate with him. Haven't seen my dad is 15 years, so that was out. Burt is not a Dad. I felt sorry for him. We had to keep the nursery at church today. What a day to remind you of what you don't have. But at least we didn't have to listen to the sermon. Today was especially hard because we miscarried right before Father's Day last year. Oh well, such is life. I am going to start counting my blessings because I am so blessed. I may not have everything that I want but I have everything I need and one day the Lord will bless me with what I want....in His way and in His time.

To answer Heather's comment from the other day. I haven't tried Pre-Seed. I really don't know much about it. But I am willing to try anything. I'll read up more on it this month and try it next cycle.

cd 5

Today is cd 5 and I will start the clomid today. Not looking forward to the headaches and hot flashes. Not much has happened this week. I was really busy at work the past two days.

Today is my boyfriend's 4th birthday party. Happy Birthday John-Chandler!!!! He is the son of some really good friends of ours. He told me at church a few weeks ago that he is my boyfriend. He is having a pool party at the tennis club today. It is raining right now but it should stop soon. The radar looks good for a pool party.

Mom finally heard from the insurance company of the man who hit her. They started working on her car yesterday. My cousin's little girl Anna Kate keeps telling Mom that he car is sick and is at the doctor so now we joke that her car is in surgery.

cd 2 and Doctors appt

So I went to the dr. today. We decided to try 150 mg clomid on days 5-9 again. We are also adding Premarin to help with the cervical mucous. I will take this for a week starting on Day 14. This is the last time we are trying natural conception. After these three months, if I am still not pregnant we will try an IUI. Dr. Connell just isn't willing to say that we have exhausted all other options. But he agrees that we can't keep trying if it's not working. I am ovulating on the clomid and we know my tubes are open so now we are tackling the cervical mucous and if that is not it, there are no more options for natural conception.

We spent most of the day helping my Mom. She came to meet us at the Dr but had a wreck early this morning. She was on an off ramp of the interstate trying to merge into traffic and was rear ended. She is ok but she has to have a new bumper and hatch for her Highlander. The people who hit her were super nice but their insurance company was not. We finlly got her a renal car at 4 this afternoon. Her wreck was at 8:30 this morning.

cd 1

Today is cycle day 1. No such luck this weekend. Tomorrow is my 3 month on clomid post surgery no pregnancy re-check. I guess we'll decide tomorrow what to try next. Burt and I are taking the whole day off and spending it with Mom in Jackson.

Shower #3 of 5

Today I went to shower #3 of 5 for the weekend. It was a baby shower. I made it through it. No tears at all. Aren't you proud!!! This is a friend of mine who got married Thanksgiving of 2005 and immediately started trying to get pregnant. She knew she would have problems b/c she only has 4 cycles per year. Her doctor made her wait 1 year before they did anything. November of 2006 she tried 50 mg of clomid for the first time and immediately became pregnant. It is so NOT fair!!!! But I am happy for her. One thing bothers me about her and my other pregnant friends, and maybe I just don't understand because I lost both of my babies before 8 weeks. But what bothers me is about how much they complain. They all wanted to be pregnant and now all they do is complain. Stop complaining. Cherish every moment of being pregnant. Especially when you know that you are in the presence of a person who has lost two and now can't seem to get pregnant.

We had an AWESOME church service tonight. We had a prayer service. That was it. We sang one song and then prayed silently and then as people felt led they got up and gave a testimony. It was GREAT!!!

"Be still and know that He is God!!"

Shower #2 of 5

OK so today was the 2nd of 5 that I have this weekend. I can't go to two of them. Today's was at my house. It was really nice. It was a wedding shower. Susan got a lot of cool things. We had an Around the House Shower so she got a lot of things she liked but would never ask for. It was really neat.

Tonight we had a fellowship fish fry at the church. It was fun but I am exhausted after today.

Get this. My temperature has stayed the same for 4 days in a row. I wonder what this means, if anything. If anyone knows, let me know. Here is my chart.

Nothing New

Nothingnew to report today. I went to a wedding shower tonight for my friend at work who is pregnant and getting married on the 30th. I just had a BIG problem with it. I am trying to be supportive but I don't agree with the way her wedding is being handled. I just don't agree with her getting married is a white wedding gown and everyone fawning all over her and telling her how wonderful this is. Just my opinion. I am just having problems with it.

Tomorrow I am hosting a wedding shower for another friend at work. I am also directing/coordinating her wedding.

Sunday I have to go to a baby shower for another friend. I got an invitation to another shower for Sunday, but it is in Laurel and I can't go. I sent a gift today.

This is going to be a tough weekend for me.

Synthroid

I finally talked to the thyroid doctor today. His nurse actually called late yesterday afternoon and I had to fax my results from the physical in. Today they increased my dosage of Synthroid from .112 mg to .137 mg. I am so disappointed and frustrated. It seems like everytime I fix something with my body something else breaks.....and they all affect fertility. When I had my thyroid removed 3 years ago everything was supposed to be fine and has been since. But now my thyroid has turned hypo again because of the baby aspirin that I am taking everyday. Apparently aspirin has that effect on people. I have to go back in 6 weeks to have it retested. I just hope that this cycle was not a bust because of it. I think mainly it affects ovulation and causes annovulation but since I am taking clomid I ovulate. I don't know if it has any effect on implantation.

Day 21 Progesterone Yesterday.....

..........was 45.10!!!!!!!!!

YEA!!!!!!!!! I am so super excited. The nurse didn't call until I was walking out the door to go play tennis. I ovulated!!!!! I guess I really ovulated b/c a Day 21 test is supposed to be 7 dpo. But according to my temp chart and the fact that I have 31 day cycles, I didn't ovulate until Day 18......so does anyone know what that means.

I am headed out to go with a friend to Winona to pick out a cake and flowers for her wedding!!!

Dang Thyroid

First of all, DO NOT leave me a comment unless it is in English and relates to me or my life.

Now that I said that, my thyroid levels are all messed up. As some of you know I had mine removed in 2004. I had my physicalfor work today and my Total T4 was 14.3 (normal is 4.5 -12.0). My TSH was 19.990 (normal is .350- 5.5). I have called my endocrinologist and I am currently waiting for them to call me back with an appointment. I hope it was just lab error or a bad day and it is not continually elevated.

I'm going to play tennis at the club tonight in a tennis mixer. It should be tons of fun!! Right now though I am exhausted and I am going to take a nap.