Infection

I found out why I had the horrible hip pain yesterday. I have a yeast infection that has gone into my muscles. It is a real deep infection, not a normal one. They called me in some medicine this morning and I am already feeling better. When I got to work this morning I started passing huge white mucous clots...I know...way too much information. But I'm better. They just said my system needed to be flushed.

On a happy note, my best, best friend in the whole wide world, Meg, found out yesterday that she is having a little girl. Cuss her fertility (her 1st anniversary is this weekend)!!!! Seriously, I am very happy for her.....and I'm not to big to admit it.....but I'm jealous of her too!

Hip Pain

I am having the worst hip pain. It radiates from my tail bone outward to my hips. It is this pressure, pulling sensation type pain. It hurts so bad. I have never hurt this bad.

My temp rose this morning. It wasn't a big, super increase but it did break 98. Still have no idea which day I ovulated, but surely I did with all the cramps I was having earlier in the week. I am still having cramps, they are just kinda dull pains right now.

Here is a picture of Essi (Dora), the little girl my cousin adopted.Isn't she precious.

Cramps

Happy Memorial Day....late!!! I enjoyed my day off from work yesterday. We had a nice long 4 day weekend. Burt went to work for about 6 hours to get some credit time. We have several things we will need to take off for over the summer.

I had the WORST cramps of my life yesterday. I don't know what that meant. I just know they hurt. I should have ovulated yesterday or today so maybe it was ovulation cramps. I ovulated the past 3 cycles but never in all of my life has it hurt this bad. I worry that somethng may be wrong. Today is a little better. Kinda a dull pain today.

We have the Captains' Meeting for Mixed Doubles Tennis tonight. Burt and I have two team, a 6.0 and a 7.0 I'm excited Mixed Tennis is always fun. For those of you who don't know, mixed is when a man partners with a woman. No, Burt and I aren't partners. No way. We would argue too much simply b/c we know what each other is capable of and expect perfection from each other.

I hope we get some rain today. It is sprinkling and there is rain all around us. But it will probably dissipate when it gets to the river.

We saw our Friends Eric and Debbie from North Carolina last night at a cookout. They are doing well. Burt and Eric have been friends forever and they went to MC together where they met me and Debbie. It was good to get caught up with them. They are pregnant. She is due in October and they are having a boy, Noah. I was sad most of the night. Everyone was so happy for her and she was rubbing it in a lot. I don't know if intentionally or not. But she kept bringing out pictures. Pictures of the nursery, and she made sure everyone there knew it was Pottery Barn. I guess I am just irritated b/c they know our situation and while they should be happy and I am happy for them, they don't have to rub my nose in it quite as much. If they didn't know our situation, it would be totally different. But I guess the fact that never once did she ask how I am or how we are and what's new and what we are trying now just upset me a little.

Oh well, such is life. Today is cycle day 18. I either ovulated yesterday or today. Probably yesterday, so I guess I am in the two-week wait. Still taking the Robitussin. Today will probably be th elast day. I haven't noticed any real changes. Has anyone else who tried this?

Dora

We got some exciting, shocking news today. My cousin (Trey) and his wife (Sidnette) are adopting a 4 year old little girl. I bet she is just the cutest thing. Trey says she looks like Dora, but her real name is Essi. She is Sidnette's half-brothers's grandchild. There are 3 children, but Trey and Sidnette are only taking the little girl. They have legal custody of her right now and are hoping to adopt officially soon. This is shocking b/c they have never wanted children. I guess people do change. I can't wait to meet her, or even see her. Anna Kate (Lori's daughter, Trey's niece) is very jealous. She doesn't want anything to do with her or anyone else to as well. She'll come around. Mom asked if there were any more children that she would like one for us, but there are not. Mom knows we want a baby, not a 4 year old anyway. But at least Mom is more open to adoption now. She keeps saying to have faith and that we haven't given it long enough and that she knows that God will bless us. I know all of that, but I have to be open to the fact that God may bless us with someone else's child. I pray for a biological child, but only God knows what the future holds.

Today is cycle day 16. Nothing new to report. Still taking temp and still taking Robitussin. Here is a link to my chart. As you can tell, no ovulation yet!!!


Here is a pic of Eli, Anna Kate, and Noah.

Graduation

My sis-in-law graduated from med school yesterday. We had to go to a party for graduates to get their long white coats Thursday night. It was fun!!! We had to get all dressed up. She is going to be an Ob/Gyn and is doing her residency at UMC in Jackson.

Nothing new to report on me. Today is cycle day 15. Still taking my temp and the Robitussin. I haven't ovulated yet, but I'mnot surprised. Will probably be Monday or Tuesday.

We worked in the yard all day today. Mulching, planting, watering, it never ends. But at least the yard is looking better. Grass is finally starting to grow!!! It is looking like a home and not so much a construction site anymore.

Tennis

I am so tired. I had a tennis lesson at 5 pm yesterday and then I practiced with my 6.0 mixed doubles team at 6 and with my 7.0 mixed doubles team at 7:30. I can barely move this morning and I play all the time. I guess 4 hours was just a bit much.

Nothing new to report. Started taking the Robitussin last night for hostile cervical mucous. I have taken it once already today....only 2 more times to go!!!! It is so nasty but if it works then it will all be worth it.

Eli hit another home run in his baseball game Monday night and he also caught his first pop fly. Aunt Bet is so proud of him

cd 9

I finish my clomid tonight. I had a horrible headache during church today. It was clomid induced. They are very distinct.

Yesterday we went to Kirsten's dance recital. She did really well. Uncle Burt and Aunt Bet were very proud of her. Then today we went to see Burt's Papaw. His Mamaw dies two years ago this weekend so we spend this day with him every year. It was nice. Burt, Leslie, and I went to church with Papaw and then the WHOLE family ate lunch at Papaw's and then went to the cemetary. It was a beautiful day and we enjoyed spending it with Burt's family very much.

Sewing, sewing, sewing

I am ssssoooooooo busy!!!! It is graduation time and dance recital time. I have so many bags and towels and laundry bags to monogram. I have been busy for the past two weeks but this week seems exceptionally busy.

Tomorrow is Kirsten's (my neice, Burt's sister's daughter) dance recital. That should be fun. Afterwards we are celebrating Kirsten's little sister Julia's 1st birthday and then we are all going to a Mississippi Braves baseball game.

Burt's grandmother dies two years ago this weekend so we spend this Sunday with his grandfather every year - the WHOLE family!! Burt, Leslie, and I are going over (Kilmichael - 1.5 hrs away) Sunday morning and going to church with Papaw. That should be fun too!!!

So we have a very busy weekend. I really want a weekend at home. We need to rest and there is so much to be done around the house. We need to do some mulching and work in the yard.

Today is cd 7. Nothing happening these days. Temps still below where they should be, so that is good.

cd 5

Today is cycle day 5. Still taking my temp everyday. Of course there is no pattern yet. So really nothing to report. I start the clomid today. I hate this time of every month...almost more than AF. I have the worst headaches while taking the clomid. I feel sick to my stomach all the time and I just feel.....yucky!!! But, if in the end something WONDERFUL happens, it will all be worth it...or at least that is what I am telling myself.

Total I have done 12 clomid cycles in the past year and a half. I am up to 150 mg on days 5-9. Out of those 12, I didn't ovulate on 2 and I achieved one pregnancy, which resulted in a miscarriage. I thought I would try Robitussin this month. Has anyone tried it? It is supposed to make your cervical mucous better for sperm travel (I think?). I'm not sure if it really works, but at this point, it can't hurt. I bought it yesterday and will start taking it on Day 10 or 11 2 tsp./2 times/day. I will ovulate around day 18 and as soon as I am sure I have ovulated I will stop taking it.

cd 3

Well, she came. AF came Saturday afternoon. I was starting to think that maybe, just maybe, I could be pregnant. But not this month....

I am tempting this month. Of course we can't tell anything yet. My cycle was 31 days last month and today is cycle day 3.

I had a WONDERFUL time with my family this weekend. I didn't get to see my sister and brother-in-law much but Eli and Noah spent the weekend with us at Mama's. Sunday afternoon we flew kites all afternoon with the boys and Anna Kate.

I love those kids. When we left yestreday they all started crying and latched on to me and didn't want me to go. I hate living 3 hours from them. I get to see them about once a month though.
But with the price of gas reaching $3.00 a gallon we may have to go visit a little less. I hope not!

Oh an exciting note though, I have given up caffine. Not quite al the way. I stil have my 2 cups of 1/2 caff in the mornings but I have cut everything else out. I was drink 3-4 Dr. Peppers or Diet Cokes a day plus another couple of cups of coffee at work.

cd 30

Well, today my temps hit rock bottom. 97.9 Coverline. That's what it fell to today. I have been very irritable and moody all day. I have cried most of the day so I am sure AF will come tomorrow. I guess we'll just have to wait and see. I won't post again till Monday b/c I am leaving tomorrow until Monday. I hope everyone has a GREAT Mother's Day. Remember me this weekend, I got my positive test last year on Mother's Day. I never thought it would take me another year to get pregnant, but here we are cd 30 1 year later BFN.

cd 29

Today is cd 29. I tested this morning and off course got a BFN. It is only 12 dpo. I still have some hope. My next cycle should start Friday or Saturday. On a good note, my temps skyrockted today. They went higher than ever before 98.7 (98.1 yesterday). I don't know what or if anything this means so I guess we'll wait and see.

I am in a better mood today. I am not as upset about my friend (from yesterday - M, and no Meg not you) being pregnant. I am trying to handle it gracefully.

I am looking forward to the weekend. I am going home to Meridian to see my Mommy. Meridian is about 3 hours from here. I am super excited. I am taking Eli (my nephew - age 8) his birthday presents b/c I missed that this year (I don't ever miss anything of his. I even took off work one time and drove 3 hours just to watch him play baseball.).

Here is my BBT chart for this month in case anyone is interested or knows how to interpret these things.

Rewind....Fast Forwad

Ok. So I haven't written in a while. I just kept thinking every month that this would be the month. Well, some friends have suggested I update this as a journal so here goes.....

November - BFN (clomid - did ovulate)
December - BFN (clomid - did ovulate)
January -BFN (clomid - did ovulate)
February - incredibly frustrated. Went back to the Dr. We decided to have laparoscopic surgery. Found endometrosis and a blocked/kinked left tube. Fixed all that and cleared to start "trying again".
March - BFN (clomid - progesterone was 38.80)
April - This is where we are now. My period is supposed to start Friday. Just took a test.......hold on.........BFN!!!!!!!!
We'll wait and see what the next few days hold. My temps have looked GREAT but today they took a nose dive, but they are still 3/10ths above the coverline. I haven't given up hope yet for this month...but I am a little depressed. A friend of mine at work announced today that she is pregnant and has set a weding date for June 30th. AAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!